THE CUT

It won't stop dripping 

The blood is too much,I'm slipping

I need HELP

I always needed help

I can feel the life slip away

The light is fading

I didn't say goodbye!

Now my lifeless body lies there frozen

No more pain

No more suffering

Goodbye suffering 

goodbye pain

The CUT was to deep.

Black Light

As I enter this life of mine

I see only one light shine

The light of pain

No shadow the same

The light is to bright 

Darkness out of sight

Bring it back to me

Only darkness I shall see

I stair death in the face

This is my place

Surrender, never, ever,

No light I can remember

I shall fall back

And move back on track

For darkening the soul

Is my only goal  

Back To Light

The door slam shut

Blood dripping from a cut

This time I painted the floor

Please come back open the door

Why is the light fading

What dark soul is gaining

The light that once were

Is but beam, shadows lore

I'm in to deep

The hill is to steep

Always I was okay

For a long time that's what I would say

I'm done, not giving in

Not letting go,where have I been ?

Life go catch a cold

On me you have no hold 

Let me be

Let me be free to see

That the light does exist

After I'm GONE

No need to care

I'm no longer there

No more lies to me

I'm DEAD not free

No more back stab

I didn't just take a cap

Not playing with a gun

I'M GONE

I'm not in the way any more

I'm not a cross to bore

I'M GONE

So have fun!

Break up is a bitch

Going threw hell

Got no more fake smile jokes to tell

I thought I knew pain 

But now its a whole new game

I Thought my heart was broken 

Now shattered by few words spoken 

I gave it my all 

On my face I fall

One day of silliness

A whole month of ugliness

Wishing for days to past

And for me to last

I open my eyes and

Wish not to be able to stand

Wishing for me to just disappear

And to have no fear

Feel like I'm losing everything

And at the end I'm nothing

Thought we were together

And said it'll be forever

It has end 

And no one to defend 

This pain I can barely survive 

I'm hanging on for dear live 

Hanging on to nothing

And yet I felt something

now of you I think even more

My heart's just so, so sore

I lost my lifeline 

My love sign

Love I know no more

My heart is to sore

Not letting anyone near

Its shattered there's to much fear

Longing for that I've lost

On ashes I was tossed

Darkness is trying to take over

Thus ill stay sober  

Never knew loss

Never had n boss

And now I'm all alone my heart lost you

But still I have friends too

The price to pay the cost

For al that's lost

Killing from inside out

And muted without a shout. . .

Broken Love

You cry to me no more

I'm waiting at the back door

I still care about love

when touching you there's no glove

I gave you my best 

I tried to impress

but when he talk

you go and walk

I'm just making a fool of myself

he only talks of himself

you make me feel like

an worn out sticker on a bike

You spend time with him and not me

when I'm with friends anger is all I see 

you were always my number one

but I feel like none 

He talks of you behind your back

but the ears you lack

he was my best friend 

but that's all to a end

You and him, one kiss !

one fatal kiss!!!

you shattered me !

all that Pain, I did not won't to be

I forgave you and tried again

and I still have pain 

but tried to hide

and live by your side 

And then again he came

and it stayed the same

you did not show him away

you let him in and together you play

My hart was healing 

and then came that feeling 

again I'm at the back door

my heart is so sore

I try and smile 

and make it last for a while

and now your blind 

and he is so kind 

He talk stuff into your head 

he was near your bed

he drives us apart 

and now again in my heart is a dart

And I ask myself 

why someone such as yourself

keep holding onto him that tight

and for you I want to fight

I ask why were together

am I not clever

why do I keep hanging on

when you are gone

Can't make up my mind

but I'm no longer blind

I see what you do

and I hurt like hell too

And he talk badly of me

you don't defend you let it be

you look threw his eyes 

and I am slowly saying my goodbyes

You will not draw a tear

for my heart is breaking in fear

very soon you'll have to choose

but for me you'll loose

Under this Mask

I cry out to the rain

Can't take this pain

My faith is dying

My fake smile, I'm lying

You see me every day

I smile to you and turn the other way

My true face I'm hiding

Feels like I have nothing but my own guiding

I don't do that EMO shit

On my problems,my suffering I keep a lid

I know its wrong 

But I've been doing it for so long

Thou this is like shit from a dove

Threw it all I found love

Still I have this faith inside 

But now the ends in sight

But now that love is making me go dark

Your words are only but a soft bark

For I've turned 

And pain, I've burned 

Timeless Feelings

Time is nothing 

Though its everything

Its our way of knowing

Without it, not knowing were we'll be going

My feelings I hide

With time on my side

And you 

For when I feel blue

my true feelings 

Hide like shadows without meanings 

The smile you see every day

From the truth , so far away

Yet I'm still there still holding on

Not doing drugs, I'm no con

Trying to stay clean 

And try not to be mean 

Though time fly

It don't just pas us by

Every minute spend with you

I got the happiness of two

Light Fades dark

When the light fades dark

and courage is only but bark

When all I've known was wrong 

And light, the truth that I long is gone

I'm alone though I cry out 

I scream I shout

I Keep calling out

I feel so alone in this hell hall

Though I stand tall

Al these pain all this suffering

This hell hall of pain hall of suffering

The light I once knew

The pain I endure 

Once you turn from the light

You have no strength have no might

Though I'm so alone 

Thought my heart feels blown

You come when I'm so tens

And make it all make sense

You turn me back, back to the light

Give me back all my might 

You touch my heart 

Remove the dart

And you heal 

and love is con seal

And now it all feels right

And all that suffering is out of sight 

The pain is going away

And your love is here to stay

And now again I'll survive

But for love I'll strive

Broken hearted Drummer

I'm done I've spoken

Though my heart is broken

Now my drumming will do the talking

And those people will start walking

Inside I'm suffering, in pain

In my head I'm angry, going insane

But when you look at me I'm still the same

I'm no fool 

My drums my sticks, I have the tools

Have the hardcore broken heart

And my drums and I won't be apart

Drums turn anger to music

And make confusion look like magic

You hit them and they don't hit back

They don't say get away go pack

You replaced my dark lonely spot 

Like a lid on a pot

You understand

And we sound nice together in a band

When I'm depro 

You and I we sound so mellow

And when I'm angry 

You make me sound happy

People will come and go

Like us hate us and though 

Its just us we will go far

One day perform and have a nice car

I'll build you up 

We will play in a pub 

You will age 

And still look good on stage 

And when I'm done 

I'll give you to my son

But for now its just us